When his romantic partner falls terminally ill, musician Phil Madeira finds himself shouldering the blame for her cancer. The disease serves to expose the dysfunction of what once seemed to be a match made in Heaven. Bearing the weight of rejection and loss, Madeira’s creativity and life as a working musician are the wings that take him across the abyss of sorrow and rejection. With humor and self-awareness, the author reveals how trauma and trials can inspire creativity, and how a receptive heart can be grateful for the difficult seasons life can bring.

“A fantastic memoir that is truly unlike anything I have read before. Phil gives a peek behind the scenes, a “backstage pass” not only into a season of his life when he was at the top of his musical game, traveling the world, playing incredible shows with amazing artists, but also privately suffering profound personal loss. He takes us backstage into his heart as he went through one of the most grueling seasons of pain and turmoil imaginable. In this era of social media, where we have reduced our knowledge of people into postage-stamp-sized morsels, Phil sits us down to a heartbreaking, tear-soaked, and ultimately deeply satisfying meal together.”

~ John Joseph Thompson — musician, speaker, author & teacher

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